the universe owes me some crap because...
a) assrape when i was 4
b) bipolar, not diagnosed until yesterday
c) 2 suicide attempts because i was put on antidepressants i never needed which actually CAUSE suicidal tendencies in teenagers
d) because of that I wasn't able to finish one single year of high school
e) so, basically, my high school years never happened
f) i (probably) got genital herpes from a crackwhore who i was only with because she lied to me and convinced it would make her love me (then she dumped me two days later)
g) I live in my bedroom. I go to work where I work in a closet in front of a computer all day. I come home where I have to stay in my room and all I have is a computer.
h) many days I don't even get to eat
i) i get paid a fraction of what i should be making given my training, experience, and responcibilities
j) I don't even get to see my best friend in the whole world who was the only one who used to make me feel loved anymore because the person I live with is allergic to cats so she wont let me have mine there (even though she has hers) and I cant leave because I have a lease for another 8 months
k) the only way I get any enjoyment out of life is to erect fantasies and tell people about them online as if they were real and once I convince them then I can convince myself. Of course, eventually, my fantasies come crashing down and I have to build them back up again.
you know what? I don't even want the stuff anymore. it wouldnt do any good, give it to someone who would enjoy it. i need much much more than what you have to offer.