This hit my heart like... Like weighting it hard, really hard... And I don't have anyone to talk to...
So, context :
I work in government-owned company in Indonesia, building infrastructures.
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First:
I've known that the company has been cutting meal money for each workers for years. They bought our meals, so it's not really visible that they has been cutting the money. But today I just realized that I should be able to do something about that, or at least get some kind of explanation or something... Because I just remembered that the work contract do actually mention specific amounts of money for the meals.
But all these years I've done nothing. And now the company no longer buy meals due to most of the workers has already been fired (why I'm not fired yet?), they'll give meals money every 2 weeks instead. So I suppose they will no longer cutting it behind-the-scene...
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Second:
Since the project is ending, I've been giving my stuff away.
A few months ago I offered my TV to my work colleague who lives in this remote village when the projecteends, but he refused it. He said, he'll take TVs auctioned by the office instead. Saying that we're friends and he can't take things from me.
Then yesterday I gave my headphones to the security guy, then later that day my work colleague (already fired) came to me to copy some of his files off work laptop, and asks "where's your headphones" when we gonna play call of duty mobile together...
I simply said, oh I gave it to the security guy. Then he went silent...
damn... I think I've made a mistake.
I totally forgot that people in Indonesia have a culture where they will say "no" despite they actually want to say "yes". You need to ask them 3-5 times to get the real answer.
When I offered my TV to him, I should have asked it again, something like "really? I'm okay with you having my TV" and "or do you want anything else? I can't bring back all of this stuff to Java Island, it'll be a great help if you can take something"
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I hate myself. And now I'm gonna eat spicy fried eggs to make myself forget everything
So, context :
I work in government-owned company in Indonesia, building infrastructures.
---
First:
I've known that the company has been cutting meal money for each workers for years. They bought our meals, so it's not really visible that they has been cutting the money. But today I just realized that I should be able to do something about that, or at least get some kind of explanation or something... Because I just remembered that the work contract do actually mention specific amounts of money for the meals.
But all these years I've done nothing. And now the company no longer buy meals due to most of the workers has already been fired (why I'm not fired yet?), they'll give meals money every 2 weeks instead. So I suppose they will no longer cutting it behind-the-scene...
---
Second:
Since the project is ending, I've been giving my stuff away.
A few months ago I offered my TV to my work colleague who lives in this remote village when the projecteends, but he refused it. He said, he'll take TVs auctioned by the office instead. Saying that we're friends and he can't take things from me.
Then yesterday I gave my headphones to the security guy, then later that day my work colleague (already fired) came to me to copy some of his files off work laptop, and asks "where's your headphones" when we gonna play call of duty mobile together...
I simply said, oh I gave it to the security guy. Then he went silent...
damn... I think I've made a mistake.
I totally forgot that people in Indonesia have a culture where they will say "no" despite they actually want to say "yes". You need to ask them 3-5 times to get the real answer.
When I offered my TV to him, I should have asked it again, something like "really? I'm okay with you having my TV" and "or do you want anything else? I can't bring back all of this stuff to Java Island, it'll be a great help if you can take something"
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I hate myself. And now I'm gonna eat spicy fried eggs to make myself forget everything
