heres come a long post, quite personal stuff in it, don't keep reading if you get bored, I don't even know why I wrote all of this, intended to write concise advice for you Sage ; ), I guess it's hard to tell the stuff without explaining.
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I'm someone with social inabilities as well but that's been slowly changing. I'm 20 year old, three years of university behind me, technically doing nothing this year but I'll be back next year in uni (probably till what you call a PhD).
Most of my life was severe depression and social phobia due to some crap childhood (and having 140 or so IQ). (extreme sadness, no hope, "dark ideas", "It's my fault", "I'm inferior to the Others","I'm not worth anything" etc.)
Social phobia (quite a real one) went down a bit over years (became more social at first college year, better next one), depression (with its periods of being a bit depressed then severly depressed) doesn't go away.
That's stuff that takes YEARS to recover from. without help of a psy (never wanted and don't want to, and I "psy myself" enough). having a best friend, alcohol and pot helped much.
I don't know if social problem and depression are linked (for other people) but that's certainly my case and I tend to see them as the same thing for that.
At least, when you're asocial, the issue is on your end, not on the Others.
So, back to these two first college years.. first social resource is people you see everyday, in your classroom, you can hang out with them, get drunk on Thursday evening (or whatever the official day is in Texas
), lan parties (or mere parties) with alcohol and pot/haschich
Being social is first Being There, paying attention to people around you, speaking with them. (stupid obvious stuff, but not easy for everyone; it's easy to be alone in the middle of 50 people though.)
You do it right.. if you don't think about it and it's natural.
third college year is a bit special. thought it would be good, social problem not that much of a concern (doesn't mean I'm not often alone.), low depression (had decided before to get rid of the guilt feeling)
then there was a nasty familial and housing crisis context I won't detail, I even crashed such a car at the beginning of that long painful period
http://www.autoweblog.de/50226711/images/Renault 4L.jpg (even if not really related, went into a truck at red light on a really foggy day, didn't see I was entering the village, front of car ENTIRELY wrecked but INTACT interior)
sorry I'm digressing, writing at more than 6PM.
So yeah, crappiest times ever, peak in depression, borked my college year (litteraly went from being the best student to the worst), illegal sub-rent of "Low Wage Habitation" (being with mother and brothers in 40m^2, furnitures stored somewhere else), lowering income for the family, crap crap crap.
Well, I'll omit the Worst, enough said already, what I wanted to say (and explain why a little bit) is that I lived more than 8 monthes without any internet connexion! down from DSL. (and now back on 56K, living in rural house). without even my PC (but with the family other's PC, crap duron 1300, with some anime, quake 3 and a great 3D Mahjong).
Having no PC is maybe one of the best thing that ever happened to me. I didn't do much socially wise and doesn't do much till today but that's related to dropping out of college. (still have some friends, though). No PC means no wasting time on online gaming (which is not social behaviour), wasting time reading and discuss on webforums (mostly PC related, and it's not social behaviour either, information exchange is more accurate. though it's possible to meet some guys IRL actually ^^) ; filling my head with so much information from the net (so much is interesting but in the end useless as don't make my life better, overheating the brain; and on a sidenote, mining information about Iraq and Bush and the traitors from PNAC helped adding fuel to depression too.)
Then, summer, student job at a cheese factory (
), cut cheese for two monthes at minimum wage (~1000€ per month at 35h week). and after that, totally by chance (watching a boxing anime I never heard about on the crap PC, that blew away me ^^) :
I decided to use sports to cure depression (still, will be matter of monthes to recover)
I used some of the cash to go to a gym (didn't really do sports before)
Been doing weight training and cardio training for 4 monthes now, holy fuck what a change, huge physical and mental/psychological benefits, and being not physically weak anymore is great. I now consider getting into boxing. (after years telling myself I was as skinny as a nail and weak as a 12 year old. There's the side benefit of improvement of the image of myself, one of my major problems, which hurts ability to have relationship with people; though as I said earlier I had been "psy-ing" myself previously to remove most Guilt feeling)
I feel I'm on the verge of.. getting a life
Er, I wanted to advise you : do some serious sports, and keep away from the PC in your free time. PC with broadband is EVIL, soul sucking, asocilazing ! time taken from PC usage goes into life. (well, wanted to say, no more than one or two hours of your free time a day ^^)
You didn't tell much about yourself but what I read made me think you were, well, a computer geek? (a nerd wouldn't google about how to get invited to a party, he wouldn't care : D )