I'm single again :(
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No i'm a pre-op transistor. Out-of-Order of course.
Well, I'm now single too.
After 8 years of relationship my boyfriend "left" me.
It's been 13 days, 5 hours and 27 minutes since he died.
Edit: ok, now I feel like a stupid attention whore posting this on an internet forum and on somebody else's thread of all places. I guess I just felt the need to vent a bit.
After 8 years of relationship my boyfriend "left" me.
It's been 13 days, 5 hours and 27 minutes since he died.
Edit: ok, now I feel like a stupid attention whore posting this on an internet forum and on somebody else's thread of all places. I guess I just felt the need to vent a bit.
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DuckThor Evil
Legend
I'm sorry if this is too personal, but was it an accident or a long time decease or what? I understand perfectly if you don't want to say anything more about it. Syvin osanottoni.
Are you serious?!
I didn't know! I'd never have made this thread if i knew. Really, i feel like a teenager crying about his summer fling compared to that.
How did it happen?
digitalwanderer
Legend
I'm seriously sorry to hear about that, you have my deepest condolences.
It was a long time illness, a type of blood cancer he'd had for the last five years.
Thanks all for your symphaties.
It's been nearly two weeks since he passed away, and sometimes it actually feels like it's been months, or years even.
That scares me a bit, as I feel that I should still be mourning a lot more than I am, and that the memory of him is fading away just too fast.
I still often get tears in my eyes in most unexpected times and places, but there are days I feel almost "normal" and even "happy".
I did love him dearly, and despite his illness the years with him were the best of my life.
We both knew this day would come sooner or later.
I think I and him were already prepared for that day and had talked things through, so there remained no unfinished thoughts or acts that I should've said or done to him before he left.
Funny thing is, I often feel truly sorry for him that he won't now be able to see and experience all the nice things in life, like our newly equipped home theater setup I just got finished while he was at hospital, and that he so waited to see... but that's absurd because, well, he's dead so why would he care now. I guess it's ultimately because I myself don't right now feel like enjoying those things that were our common hobbies, so it's just part of the longing.
So, I'm ok. Better than I thought I'd be. I know there'll be sad days ahead and it'll be long before I'm all okay, but... as cliched as it sounds... that's how life is.
london-boy, you have all the right in the world to feel sad (or not) for your break up with your bf, the losses we have to face are all personal and relative to one's situation in life after all. And sorry for my earlier comment, that was uncalled for.
Thanks all for your symphaties.
It's been nearly two weeks since he passed away, and sometimes it actually feels like it's been months, or years even.
That scares me a bit, as I feel that I should still be mourning a lot more than I am, and that the memory of him is fading away just too fast.
I still often get tears in my eyes in most unexpected times and places, but there are days I feel almost "normal" and even "happy".
I did love him dearly, and despite his illness the years with him were the best of my life.
We both knew this day would come sooner or later.
I think I and him were already prepared for that day and had talked things through, so there remained no unfinished thoughts or acts that I should've said or done to him before he left.
Funny thing is, I often feel truly sorry for him that he won't now be able to see and experience all the nice things in life, like our newly equipped home theater setup I just got finished while he was at hospital, and that he so waited to see... but that's absurd because, well, he's dead so why would he care now. I guess it's ultimately because I myself don't right now feel like enjoying those things that were our common hobbies, so it's just part of the longing.
So, I'm ok. Better than I thought I'd be. I know there'll be sad days ahead and it'll be long before I'm all okay, but... as cliched as it sounds... that's how life is.
london-boy, you have all the right in the world to feel sad (or not) for your break up with your bf, the losses we have to face are all personal and relative to one's situation in life after all. And sorry for my earlier comment, that was uncalled for.
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Well, it will matter very little to you, this is an internet forum after all so it's all just written words on a monitor, but i'm so very sorry for that.
*Big hug*
*Big hug*
I believe you both had done the best for his time. They always say that life is short, but it is even more shorten if we live un-awareness. I sincerely respect of what you have done.
Anyway, you and LB are still one of the good fortunate person who can share your love with the one you love. Someone cannot even start it
...To LB, it is a matter of acceptance than change... when we request change to anyone... it always ends up like this. If you love him and cannot accept the way he is... it is a bit hard to go on... in the same way apply to the guy too.
Well, some of you might remember the event of last year (me getting a real life boyfriend, doing the serious relationship thing)...
http://www.beyond3d.com/forum/showthread.php?t=25241&highlight=boyfriend
Well, after a year, we split up. Actually, we split up 3 weeks ago and it would have been a year 2 weeks ago.
Bit of a tragic situation, i still love him very much but it just wasn't working and it wasn't gonna work, so it was better to end it now, than do it when things would be much more complicated - as if they weren't complicated already.
So, feel sorry for me and most importantly, feel sorry for all men in London and eventually around the world. No one's safe, remember that
Life goes on. You'll find the right person eventually.
